ouch. it hurts.
it broke. a lump. painful.
wonder where i got it injured.
i forgot. and i'm dont want to remember.
what are you thinking of?

ouch. it hurts.
the tiny capillaries broke. have a lump on my shin. painful.
i wonder where i knocked it.
i dont recall. and i dont want to cause i know i'd never succeed.

does it make a difference
dont think too much.
ha.................

everything is screwed up. i feel like poo...
my leg hurts. my stomach's giving me stupid problems. feeling so dead damn exhausted and tired. so much to do. so little done. so much to care. nothing i can handle. school's like everyday. i'm not in the level which has plenty of extra lessons.but i'm like seeing school more than extra lesson-ers. irritated. unfairness. scared. frightened. lost. worried. remorseful.

so what, if there isn't any blood.so what, if my sore throat got better. so what, if there 's the toilet bowl for me. so what, if i have a bed. so what, if i have planned everything out. so what, if i'm concerned. so what, if i love the memories held in the school. so what, if i've done my fair share. so what, if i've thought positive. so what, if i have a compass. so what, if i've apologized. so what, they don't help. at all. i'm still here. feeling miserable. indulging in self pity. dont know what to do next.

i need jack sparrow's compass to tell me where to go, what to do next.

i love My Motivation. but it's not there anymore.

something is stuck in my brain. i wonder how i can ever get it out. rather difficult. operation wont help. i guess. i need some cure. medicine anyone?

ps: don't try comforting me. that's not the cure.

Ended my post @ 8:55 PM